dear diary, welcome april !
how the f*%# are we already a quarter through 2025?!!
i feel like it was just january 1st and i was thinking about all of the goals i wanted to achieve & areas of my life i wanted to grow in. 2024 was an all-time-high year for me & coming off of it, i had huge expectations for 2025. one thing about me is that i love a new year. the resolutions, the fresh energy and just the general hope that surrounds the month of “1” (january). but…to keep it frank, the first 3-months of this year are what im choosing to call a test-run, lol.
i am someone who thrives off of motion and having a million responsibilities to juggle. it keeps me insanely busy and by default, unavailable to all of the things {and feelings} i don’t wan’t to associate or interact with. some call this behavior an insane work-ethic and others say, a victim to hustle-culture. either way, this is how i’m wired. i am twenty-one years old and i can’t recall a time where i wasn’t like this.
that is up until january of this year.. where i finally experienced the worst feeling in the world as a creator. something brewing for years now that finally caught up to me. an insolvable problem with no timeline or rulebook to help. & that my friends is known as burnout.
as i just mentioned, i am incapable of being still and find it is one of my biggest flaws. so to just absolutely rock my shit, the universe decided to give me a 3-month-straight period of time to get comfortable with the concept of “balance”. i know this all must sound ridiculous and a little embarrassing that i’ve never taken breaks or lived a balanced life, being this young. but up until this year, i didn’t feel like i was missing out on anything.
after sitting with myself and re-learning the person i am becoming, not hyper-fixating on who i once was, i can honestly say this “test-run” ended up being one of the most beneficial periods of my life thus far. it granted me the time and grace to face myself and all of the things i have been trying so hard to avoid. coming out of this, i feel a renewed appreciation for this planet we live on and a broader perspective on the role i’m supposed to play here.
the month of april welcomes spring, the season of renewal and rebirth & on the astrological calendar, this month marks the start of a new year through the first zodiac sign; aries. so, if you think about it, i’m actually in perfect alignment and very prepared to officially jump start my year of 2025!
i used to think “everything happens for a reason” was the corniest line in the book. but now that i’ve lived countless scenarios where it’s proved to be true, i’ve found a better way to put it, so i leave you with this:
enlightenment is when a wave realizes, it's the ocean
the whole point of the human experience is to constantly better oneself, no matter how minimal those changes may feel.
if you need any help, or someone to talk to, my instagram dm’s are always open [ @kareenakhurana ] ! there is also a ‘let’s connect’ tab on the bottom of my home page. 💌
i love you,
you are powerful
& are doing better than you think ;)
xoxo, kk