growing pains
& happy 1st of july :)
hey loves!
it’s been a long time since I got on here and wrote a blog to go with the diary dump on my instagram. partially because i’ve been so busy, i’m barely keeping up with the posts, but also because writing these forces me to pause and reflect. on my life, my circumstances and the good or bad that comes with it.
there have been a lot of monumental changes in my life in the past few years and transitions that have rocked my world a bit. in this span of time, i’ve lived in three different cities, gone to two different colleges, lost a few very important people to me and moved out of my childhood home, where i have lived my whole life and adopted the title, “adult”.
to most people, this may not seem like a lot, but to me, it’s enough for me to never want to leave my house or talk to anyone new again. *slightly joking slightly not…* obviously, that is not an option so i opt for the opposite, working 24/7, at any capacity i can get. a lot of people i love joke and call me a “workaholic”, but the truth is, it is a distraction that occupies my mind, temporarily easing me of all the sorrow i have yet to work through.
today is july 1st, marking the halfway point of 2025. i honestly have no idea where this year has gone and can’t help but wonder if i’ve spent the front half of the year focused on the wrong things. it’s always been tough for me to prioritize myself and my own mental health. i am a super bubbly, confident and charismatic human and with that comes a lot of assumptions but the biggest phrase i’ve heard my whole life is “we don’t worry about you”. && that is a good feeling, to know that the people who i surround myself with are confident in my ability to self-regulate and stay afloat in the waves of life challenges. but, on the flip, it makes me feel extremely odd to ask for help or advocate for myself when i need a break.
going into the second half of this year, i want to adopt a new mindset that allows my brain to feel some ease.
where work and life are a balance, not just one or the other
where i feel normal and okay taking a break when i need one
recognizing that work is opportunity, not purpose
& finally acknowledging that i am the prize, everything around me is just an expansion of me and the energy i release into the world.
i could talk about this forever, but it’s scary to put these thoughts online. for anyone to pick apart and analyze. but i really think part of my purpose is to talk about these uncomfortable things enough, until they are comfortable. not just to me, but to the rest of the world too.
if you’ve been feeling the same lately, i want to leave you with this quote:
“you’re more than a number, a job, a person who is smart.
you’re someone’s dream, someone’s phone call, a person with a heart.
you’re more than a body, a pile of thoughts, or a mess.
you’re so much more than you seem, it’s all I can stress…”
talk you to soon…. if you need any help, or someone to talk to, my instagram dm’s are always open [ @kareenakhurana ] ! there is also a ‘let’s connect’ tab on the bottom of my home page.
xoxo kk 💌